15 years ago, a person whom I saw as my brother did something unspeakable of in which I myself couldn’t bring myself to talk about it to anyone until a few years back where I started to open up to my cousin sister and then later to Maya. I was so traumatised till I kept locking myself up in the room being all depressed and disgusted with my own body. It took me quite awhile to hide that memory right at the back of my head to be blocked by other memories.
Last Saturday, Kak Sue called me up to tell me that this person has been talking about what he did to me to others that I don’t even know. Since then, I just knew I had to open up to Adi as well. So I told him right there and then, well of course I broke down being all angry and sad and being haunted by the flashbacks. My brain just couldn’t function. I had restless and sleepless nights until now to be honest.
My whole weekend was ruined by the news. I only had 2-3hrs of sleep per night since Saturday. Mentally tired and its driving me insane. Just to know it like that if giving me a headache until I got so angry that I start throwing things across the room, crying, staring into blank space, screaming etc.
After that episode, this afternoon Faiz (mac’s friend) who grew up alongside all of us told me that Mik ran away, stealing RM2000 cash and his limited edition Hublot watch with the certificate that his father gave as a wedding present. All caught on his surveillance camera that is installed in his house. I got angrier after knowing that news. I mean how could he do such a thing. Faiz gave him a place to stay for a week when he was over in JB and right after we scolded him about talking trash about me and others, this is what he does. haihhhhh…