Of all the topics to talk about we ended up talking about the two idiots in my life which I have considered dead.
The rage I have if them in my life is unimagineable. I feel angry! I feel hurt! I feel upset! Why??? Why should I feel so??
Its tiring. I’m mentally drained. I feel like screaming my lungs out cause I just can’t bare the pain I feel towards them. I hate them! I despise them for their own actions and poison. I do!! Why should I value them? They have caused me and mama a lot of trouble and ever since mama died its like the burden is on me. I mean why should i carry the burden right? I have 3 kids to think of and abang just entered Standard 1 so yeah I should be more focused on him more instead of these idiots.
Hence why I removed them from my life. Should I be the one letting them in again no! this time is a NO! I go above and beyond to try be there for them just the way Mama did so that they don’t feel the empty space as much but nope I cant controlled what happens in their life. They are two growned ass men. Its their life, their decision.. so WHATEVS! Just thinking about them gives me a headache!
Haihh..